Just (below) average

I'm really not used to being average. I mean, I was salutatorian of my class in high school, was awarded a full scholarship to undergrad (which I eventually lost as a result of my torrid love affair with many varieties of alcohol). I was pretty good at quite a few sports. I had a pretty nice body - I wish I would have been happier with it back then. The last couple of years are really helping "bring me down to Earth."

Let's see:

1. I've put on about 50 pounds (no lie) - Nothing else to say about this really. I don't like exercise but I love food. Not a real shocker that I've gotten fat and am staying that way.
2. Everyone around me is getting PG but me - I'm currently on my 2nd IVF cycle. As I mentioned the other day, my e2 levels mysteriously dropped after they raised my dosage of stims for 2 days. How odd. So they raised them even more, and I can now report that my e2 has risen to 177 from 95. Still not as high of a number as I was expecting. Thinking back on my last cycle, they didn't test my e2 nearly as often; it very well could have done the same thing then. In fact, at day 6 last cycle my e2 was 66, and this time it was 95. So maybe all is not lost. I go back tomorrow - I'll update you then.
3. I'm in law school with people who are waaay more accomplished and / or smarter than me - Serio. People in my class have their PhDs, multiple Masters degrees, and have traveled the world. I graduated undergrad, then took a couple of years off to...what? Fu.ck around? That's pretty much what I did. Needless to say, I am not ranked in the top 10 of my class; hell, I'm not even in the top half. I got my grades back for the spring semester. B-, C+, C. Eh. At this point, as long as my GPA is high enough that they can't kick me out of school, I'm golden. Am I right, people? School's hard.

Just livin' the dream.